I did it again

You know, I'm supposed to learn my lesson by now - isn't that what normal people do? Learn their lessons after a once near-death humiliating exposure?

This is one of my biggest sins, I think. & I am not going to reveal it to the WORLD.
It's so private that none of you guys know it - it's not even in my venting diary (which I cannot find but that's not my point).

These are one of my - so called - more dramatic moments so please... Enjoy the dramatics (such a word?) of yours truly, me.

My heart's still beating. I still couldn't believe that I'd underestimated people like that.
My tongue feels numb. My fingers are trembling.

My phone's switched off. The house phone's disconnected.

I am completely isolated from the world - despite the Internet.

Truly - truly - I shan't be forgiven for this sin. I mean, seriously.


Oh god, what am I gonna do, what am I gonna do, what am I gonna do???
Word gets out, I'd be labelled [ ].


Seriously.