[sniff]

The minute I woke up this morning, the sudden realisation that there is no Wicked practise.

Forever.

Hmm... So this is why everyone was crying last night.
This is so depressing! I mean, seriously.

No more going to Cheras.
No more grumbling in the morning, or complaining about the bus.
No more yelling till your throat gets sore.
No more sneaking past the Dragon Lady.

Seriously.

This is downright depressing.

To add the misery, we've to return to school.
I can't even remember how it felt like to wear the typical charcoal-white uniform.

I'm dreading the meeting of our beloved teachers though (e.g. Pn Azizan, Mrs Malar).

What hell =.="

Well, to cheer myself - & you, the reader - up, here's a pic to distract ourselves with.
Got this on Deviant Art. Enjoy!
=P

Oh, & read on if you've finished Harry Potter : The Deathly Hallows.

Everyone's

MOODY!

Aley & Minni's sad =(
Jase's plain moody - I dunno why!
Seal 2's sad =(
Brandon's lonely (okay, I'm running out of ppl)
Midget's - uh, Zack's - still.. Well, he's still a Midget to me



Seriously. You people...
It's as if I'm the only carefree one around!

I can understand Aley, Minni, Seal 2...
But why's Jase so moody??

I mean, it's weird.
Today when he came over with Midget, he wasn't smiling alot.
Just, you know, smiling at times.

Watched a cartoon show - dum de dum, Garfield in celebration of his birthday! - & munched on snacks.
Oddly, I had to share with Midget bcoz Jase didn't look like he had the mood to share food.

See? He was in such a bad mood that he needed more food to comfort him.

Went to my room & talked, chit chat.
Discovred that Blondie's on vacation so Midget's off now.

That lousy guy nearly stole my PHOTOS!
I should keep it in a safe or something.

I swear, how can ppl recognize another person from the back when all they saw was the person's face the last time they glimpsed at said person?

& when Midget went into the toilet, I was lying on the bed next to Jase, feet on my study chair.
Usually we'd be singing a random silly song while Midget plays guitar but then Jase looked moody - mentioned - so we didn't.

It's so... Sad..

Oh well... That's all for now!

Bye!

World's healthiest person

I admit it.

I am not the world's healthiest person.
Hell, who is?

A few minutes ago, I was busy finishing off this chocolate bar I found in the fridge.
& I ain't talking about that single, puny piece of a chocolate bar like Mars.

Nooo sireee, I'm talking about a grown-up bar. The one where there's those little cube-sized chocolates so that you could break it off & eat one piece a week or whatever.

Except that I ate the whole thing.
In five minutes.

& it was Swiss chocolate - yes, the notorious creamy, thick Swiss kind.

& sure, it's one thing to eat it while walking or doing push-ups or dancing with S-Club 7 or whatever.
It's another to be watching re-runs of Curious Play (Fushigi Yuugi) which were like drawn in the 90's or whatever, if you analyse the colouring on the futon couch, lying on your stomach.

Seriously. It's as if I want to be obese.

Funny thing. I went to the doctor's the other day - no biggie, I was just teman-ing my dad - & there was this cool weight-height thing to measure the status of your fat.

Guess what? For my height, I'm on the brink of Normal & - you'd never believe this but it's the truth, I cross my heart - Underweight.

HAH.

I told this to Aley & she just looked all serious & said, "I told you so. This just means you're tall."
Terminated.

So now I'm just waiting for this video to load so that I can grab it & put it in my iPod & watch it when my parents think I'm asleep.

Muahaha. They do not know that I am now clever enough to download stuff. =P

It's been a while

He's got a one-hand feel on the steering wheel, the other on my heart

Mmmm... I'm in a content mood.

Well, you could tell with the significant open-lyrics of - my new-found idol - Taylor Swift (Our Song) on the first sentence of this post.
That & also because I've just watched my first ever Duff movie in what? Months?

But this one was kinda different bcoz Hilary & her sister was starring in it. It was cool but then the guys kept being so chivalrous...

he says baby is something wrong?,
i say nothin' i was just thinkin' how we don't have a song

How is one supposed to be on celibacy - on guys, mind - when there's movie like that making guys being so... So SWEET?!

I think I'm almost relieved to find that there is no such guy who exists at our age. I mean, seriously.
Or else I'd have to fight off a heck of women =P

Haha.

Anywayz... It's been a while since I've done something this fun! I mean, when you've got no one to entertain you at 1 in the morn, what else does one do but listen to country songs belting out in your headset - not earphones - & typing in blogger.com?

Yesterday & part of the day today, I was cooped up in a car with my parents.
Seriously. That is not how a kid'd like to enjoy his/her term break.

Anywayz, dinner yesterday was DELICIOUS. My dad was so busy stuffing down the - well, stuff that he finished everything.
& I mean everything.

& I don't know whether it was just a coincidence but, after that, the stall we were eating at was FULL. Seriously.
So my dad being my dad thought he was - I quote - a living advertisement & just dug in some more.

(Evidence on the right)



Then we went back to kampung in Muar.

[forward to today]

Well, I had to fit into this green kebaya & lemme tell you, it is no joke for us Malaysians to fit into something we kept at the back of our closets for 8 months or something till Hari Raya.

Yes, we were going to a wedding. My mom bought this ridiculous set of - how to put this delicately... - modern corset.

I swear, I had this sense of flashback to the Elizabehean times when women tried to pull the strings for that itty bitty bodice they had to squeeze into.

You get the picture.

Everyone kept cooing on & on about how I look like such an anak dara (virgin) in my Kebaya & how tall I was, even though clearly I was wearing flats - I always do.

So on the way back home, I was so bored in the 4-hour drive that I began taking pictures of myself with the phone camera.

Yes, yes. unbelievable.
But we all have our times.

I'm feeling dead guilty now that I'm dissing Aley on her rock climbing - even though I'm kinda happy that I don't need to climb that stupid wall but still.

I mean, first Silver now this?

AAAAA!

It's mind-racking (such a phrase?).

Oh & just wanted to tell you that yesterday (or should I say Saturday) I recalled on how pathetic I was being.
One of the main reasons I'm back to my strict celibacy - ON GUYS - rules.

Everyone had to wear their posh clothes because we were going for some sort of 'recording' so I put on this baju kurung top with jeans to, you know, play it casual.

& if you knew how many times I was hoping that Allar- uh... McFlutey &/or his brother saw me.
Seriously.

McCellist was coming out - his class was the same time as mine which was kinda the reason I try my best to hang around until it's 15 mins past 1pm, the end of my class - & I just chickened out & ran straight for the lift.

UGH! This is so frustrating.
I have to find some sort of companion of the opposite gender.

Well, my back's aching from all this hunching & it's 15 mins till 2 so I think I better hit the hay (I'm sleeping on the floor tonight. I consider this camping enough)

I grabbed a pen and an old napkin,
and I ....wrote down our song

Promises... Some meant to be broken?

Yea, yea. I remember that I vowed not to open the URL of blogger.com till Mid Year's over (8 mors grueling hours of sitting at a desk, thinking frustratingly what you'd get for the term. Nice way to end a semester, huh?), but who can resist to POUR out the thoughts gnawing the insides of your brain?

An idiot, that's who.

Anywayz, I just came back from a one-to-one revise session with my dad, I kid you not. A real sit-down-it's-time-to-study-without-the-help-of-technology thing.

It was horrible bcoz what we were studying was far more disturbing than any other subject I have attempted to ace in. It's called...

GEOGRAPHY.

Ick.

Seriously. Who's bright idea was it to make us kids study the encyclopedia of our blood land? What have we ever done to you??

Each question my dad tested me on hit me like a punch in the gut (& my brain). Seriously. Questions like, "Where is Banjaran blablabla..."

I couldn't wait to hit the hay but the thoughts inside of me were just buzzing around. So, I thought I could dispose of 'em here =P

Lucky you?

This is bad of me. I've got three subjects lining up with a pitchfork of their own tomorrow - the hardest three subjects in my student year, mind - & here I am, waiting for both the downloads of the Grey's Anatomy & Hairspray trailer via iPod.

Wha-? Hairspray? you ask?



Yea, well. Credits goes to Natasha for being seriously fanatic about it - & no, it has nothing to do with the fact that Zac Efron is once again starring in anoter musical-slash-movie.
It's the fact that the movie is waaay back into time, where people had hair as big as beehives & used quirky phrases like, "the Bees' Knees".

Personally, I like that era too. I mean, I'm a huge fan of swing jazz music!
Plus they all knew the same dances - theoretically, in my mind. Before I watched the trailer, that is - so it was kinda cool to be in a seriously synchronized dance.

& uh, did I mention that the guys would just pour out the charm like maple syrup on pancakes? (God, where did that phrase come up? I seriously need to find new phrases)

So, I'm running out of steam - again - & also bcoz I can hear someone's footsteps getting louder &...

Geesh! Why am I babbling?? Ciao for now!

Boredom strikes again

Yea, I found this intriguing stuff so... Wanna know about me? Check it out! =P

(Haha, I sound like some dead lame ad)

My 'Profile'

Supposedly

Studying. I'm horrible =.= One of the biggest exam's in my F1 life is 4 days away & here I am, blogging on how I feel like a heel for not cramming my head.

To be honest, the only subjects I'm worrying - majorly - on is Geo.

Um, and KH.
And also BM - the stupid Tema stuff.

Y-yeaaaa... My brain's just groaning at the mere prospect of studying (phew! That sounded intellectual =P).

Asides supposedly studying, people are starting to think that Guy P supposedly likes me - more than just the 'closest friend-who's-a-girl' thing.

Supposedly.

Also, supposedly, I'm supposed to hate, hate, HATE a butterfly - I don't know why you people are thinking that =.=

This is decidedly very scary, seeing as I'm being struck as the victim of vicious rumours (victim of vicious, victim of vicious, victim of vicious... Catchy =P) TWICE in one day.


I feel like completing a story, seeing my very wide-ranging vocab-momenta springing out to life! (Figuratively speaking, of course)

Haha.

Ah, yes. One more to the supposedly list :

Aley supposedly said that I am her idol, therefore she has the rights to copy me =.="

Flattered, though I maybe, I can't help but feeling a tad annoyed - why can't she be just her instead of soaking up little traits from each & every person?

I shall inquire this to the said person when I see her tomorrow =P


We-ll, zat's it for now.

O&O,
GadgetG;o)

Pressure's on

So-o... Long time no write, dearest blog?
Anywayz, no need to see the title that Mid Year's around the corner - well, 5 days away, to be precise.

I'm dead nervous. This is a Mid Year. No more lounging around, now we'd have to crack our skulls open to fit all this info into our brains - 5 months of lessons! In ONE brain!

(Yuckadoodle, I nearly typed out Brian instead of Brain =P)

The pressure's on - parents, families, friends - well, okay, maybe not friends but they keep saying that we're gonna do way better than 'em - are expecting everything from us, the single solitude with the best education money can give.

I honestly think that this is like some sort of package deal for being an adolescent. Why, why, why? Okay, actually, I think we should be thankful instead. Maybe this is like the downer bit of being a teen - I mean, we're not paying bills, insurance & what not.

We're just the ones in the generation with the better music taste, fashion sense - um, excluding me =P - & brimming with talent [cough]. Maybe the studying is just the only negative thing around?

- There I go, blabbering away. I don't get a word I'm saying outta this -

Ah, yes! Today's Mother's Day. Happy Mom's Day to all MOMS!

Though this is a seriously commercialised thing, I still celebrate it for the sake of my mom... & grandmom... & great-grandmom... - & also that Valentine's is way more Hallmark-y than this.

Something was bugging me this whole month & I was wondering what. I finally found out what was bugging me all this while.
[ahem]

A NEW MEG CABOT BOOK'S BEEN RELEASED!!!!

=P Hehe, don't think it had to do with some guy admitting undying passion for me or something equally fictional. Bcoz, seriously, it's never gonna happen.

Oh, since I've managed to trail off to the guy topic, lets talk bout yesterday, shall we?
Yesterday, I had a mui deep convo with a certain bear about - yes, you can guess - GUYS.
Or at least the lack thereof.

(For us, dear butterfly. You're just the charming, lucky one =P)

Aley thinks that I'm - I quote - very socialised & lucky bcoz I know so many guys (e.g. Allary/McFlutey, McCellist, Jase) more than her & also, guys prefer me to her.

Which is NOT true. Sheesh.

I've just concluded myself that I'm single & lonely.
Sori, very single & lonely.

Hopeless romantic, though I may be, it is just a very unuseful trait if I've got no victim to use this power on.

Haha, power... Where is Aminah & her fellow Bucket Fans? =P

Reminds me - again - Aminah is soooo loooooneellyyyy.

Man, I'm babbling on & on & on. This is my way of stalling from studying the horrific GEO.
Bahh, I don't see what we're gonna get outta that subject - all we know is where that mountain is or what's the good of mankind activities doing to nature.

I'm not even aiming for that field!! Okay, charitywork, maybe. But not all that environmental-chemistry-whatever stuff.

Okay, I'm running out of steam. I think I better publish this post before my mom bursts in & gives me a nag so long that she'll give the top runner of the world a run for his own money.

O&O,
GadgetG;o)

Been thinking

Pfft. That's what I always do whenever I Balik Kampugn. Thinking.

Anywayz, I was dead bored so I watched this Lizzie McGuire re-run - can I have this moment to say that I can't believe that used to be Hilary Duff?! I mean, have you seen her latest album?? She looks like an... Adult.
It was the one where Gordo had a girlfriend & Lizzie & Miranda were afraid that he would stop hanging out with 'em so they spied on his date with his girlfriend.

So in the end, Gordo broke up with said girlfriend bcoz he said that maybe he liked the idea of having a girlfriend than actually having one.
Seriously. That got me thinking.

Am I like that? Is that why I'm such a HR & yet, at the same time, a Cynical Single?
Huh. Maybe I do prefer the idea of having a boyfriend instead of REALLY having one.

Ah... It boggles the mind. Very upsetting as it is nearly past my bedtime (stop laughing. I can't believe I wrote that).

Another song to upload :

Enjoy!

Probational hair

My mom put my hair on probation.
Seriously.
She just said that if she ever saw my hair in the usual big puff of a mess, she's just gonna snip it all off - CROP-HAIRED STYLE.

Crop-haired, I tell you! The indignity, the pain, the agony...
[sniff] The hair!

Now my head doesn't even have its rights. I'm thinking of having a strike - what kind of strike, I don't know.
Hmm... Maybe I'd tie my hair in a ponytail for a month - althouh I think that's what my mom wants me to do =.=

Some dillemma.

Latest jingle stuck in the head? McFly's song - Sorry's Not Good Enough thanks to Mr. Yap who recommended it.
Now I'm determined to collect all of McFly's albums!

Until I move into Cjaya, of course. I think that's 2 months away...
Man, I'm gonna miss it here.

Anywayz, the song's about this guy who broke up with his girlfriend - she dumped him.

I can't stop, I can't stop loving you.
You're a dreamer and dreaming's what you do,
I won't stop believing that this is the end, there must be another way.
Cos I couldn't handle the thought of you going away, yeah

Hmm... Okay, the guy & girl came from different worlds - dead drop different backgrounds. The girl's thinking of giving up but the guy won't because... Well, he's too in love with her.

Sorry's not good enough, why are we breaking up?
Cos I didn't treat you rough so please don't go changing.
What was I thinking of?
You said you're out of love, baby don't call this off because sorry's not good enough.

The dude demands an explaination. He doesn't know what's gone wrong bcoz he knows that he didn't do anything wrong. The girl just stopped loving him but the dude hasn't.

Don't stop, all those things you do.
I'm a believer and that's what gets you through,
I can't fight this feeling that this is the end,
We're in the thick of it, where will this ever end?

He really tries hard to convince the girl to give him another chance. He just knows it'd work & that they'd gone too far to stop.

Oh, you said you'd never leave me here, yeah a whole new reson.
Sorry's just not good enough for you,
Everybody makes mistakes and that's just what we do.

The guy reminds her that she promised him that she'd always love him, no matter what. & the breaking up? Is just a mistake.

Man! This is good stuff for VVSSS!


Off&out,
GadgetG;o)

"Why are girls so emo?"

That was the question Ivan asked me as he saw the sight of numerous girls crying.
Pffft.

Of course I didn't say anything. Please.
But I was just staring at him, wondering, "Well, hello? What am I, a tree?!"

He didn't get the hint & continued his delusional rantings to Gao Jye, most likely.
It was a day like any other typical school day - minus the tears but you get what I mean.

I'm freaking out that I left my Campori Cap at CHERAS!!!!!!
Cheras.
The stupid place where it has my cap, that's probably worth a million bucks in sentimental value.

"You wouldn't get the same night atmosphere, the stench of your sweat & the DNAs stuck inside that hat." Rina said.

=.= Yes, I know. She wasn't helping.

Loads of people didn't show up today - no wonder. Nothing was happening at school.
I mean, asides the whole C3 thing & Frisbee but still.
Nada.

Now I've got nothing better to do than blog my thoughts, which are:

"What's for lunch?"

Oh, wait. No. Not those thoughts =P
Sorry. I meant these thoughts:

"Which is worth more, sentimental or CASH value?"

I know that some of you may straight away say sentimental, because obviously it's the right thing to say.
Those kind of things where you just want to look good & gold-hearted even though the truth is, you think that it's the other choice.

I'm not saying names. I'm just saying, I'm one of those people sometimes =P

I dunno which is nicer. I mean, sure.
Cash is materialistic & sentimal isn't.
& yes, I know, sentimental values come from the heart. I get that.

But cash... Not only does cash come from the wallet, it also comes from the heart too, right?
Bcoz we wouldn't have the heart to take out the money out, if not.

Haha. I'm so lame sometimes =P

Hmmm... Interesting cut-out survey. Let's see it, shall we?

Which is Better with the Opposite Sex

63. Hair color: Black/brown
64. Hair length: Pfffft
65. Eye color: Anything except violet
66. Measurements: Taller than me =P
65. Lips or Eyes: both
67. Cute or sexy: Cute
69. Hugs or Kisses: I'll stick with holding hands, thanks
70. Short or tall: Ditto 66
71. Where's the question number 71??!: Here
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: Sentimental
73. Good or Bad: Both
74. Sensitive or spontaneous: Not too sensitive, not too thoughtless =.=
75. Hook-up or Relationship: Latter
76. Long courtship: Haha
77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant one: Half-half

Man, I really need to get my mind straight.
There's no guy out there! I mean, seriously.
They're all nice & jerky sometimes but whatever. They're just friends.
Knew them for 3 years -_-"

None. Nada.
& you know what's worse?
I've got no inspiration for VVSSS & Teen Dillemma.
Wahhhh.

Okay, that's all for now.

O&O,
GadgetG;o)

Just it

1. Are you in a complicated
relationship?
Nope

2. Do you hate more than 3 people?
Nope

3. How often do you go shopping?
Uh... Weekly?

4. How many houses have you lived in?
5... 2 months until I live in the 6th

5. Favorite candy bar?
Crunchie!

6. Do you call it Soda or Pop?
Soda

7. Least favorite school subject?
Agama

8. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
12? (hehe)

9. Would you shave your head Britney
Spears bald?
NO

10. Have you ever thrown up in public?
Never thrown up in my life - except that one time when I ate that one month old snack...

11. Name one thing that is on your
mind right now:
Where do people get these surveys?

12. Favorite genre of music?
Pop rock

13. What's your zodiac sign?
Pisces

14. What time were you born?
Mid-morning

15. What's your favorite ice cream?
I love ALL ice-cream!

16. Have you rejected a date?
What date?

17. What is the most embarrassing CD
you own?
My party pack CD in 04

18. Are you sarcastic?
Nooooooooooooo... Truly, this is the most enlightening question ever asked.
Does that answer the question?

19. What are your favorite color(s)?
Turquoise, blue, orange...

20. How many watches do you own?
Three

21. Irritating or Annoying?
Both =P

22. Spring or Fall?
Fall

23. Favorite color to wear?
Orange

24. Sierra Mist or Sprite?
Sprite

25. Chocolate or Vanilla?
Chocolate-vanilla

26. Where is your second home?
SSC

27. Have you ever slapped someone?
Yea

28. Have you ever danced in front of
your mirror?
Sometimes

29. How many lamps are in your bedroom?
Three

30. How many video games do you own?
Ten

33. Do you want a new piercing or two?
I'm happy with the pair on my ears

37. Are you too forgiving?
Yes

39. Do you own something from Hot
Topic?
Nope

42. Heinz or Hunts ketchup?
Heinz

43. When was the last time you cried?
Been a while

45. What did u wish for now?
Something...

The "One"

I know this is totally out of the blue but it was just bugging me & I decided to jot it - or in this case, type it - all down.

The "one"

I have vowed to stop searching for the "one", seeing as I am at the mere age of [censored]. & anywayz, the boys our age aren't all that "the-one" material, if you know what I mean.

Thank God nobody knows about this blog yet. Or I wouldn't dare to write this down.

Anywayz, what I have always wanted in a guy...
Here it is:

1) Sweet (duh) - & I mean, thoughtful sweet. Even little gestures are good enough. Like remembering my birthday & giving me a card...
(Yea, that's how desperate I am)
2) Likes me back. I mean, genuinely likes me back. & not bcoz of my looks (haha) or anything
3) Funny - c'mon. Any guy who has no sense of humour at all is already out of the list.
4) Knows me. Like, really knows me. Such as... He knows that I like it when ppl surprise me or actually care when something happens. Been stabbed by a friend or whatever. Knows that I hate it when they put the cherry on top of the sundae instead of a classic choc syrup. Or give an orchid instead of a daisy.
That kind of things.

5) Most importantly...
He pass cute notes. Seriously. I know it's lame but I like it when someone talks to me. Bcoz when nobody's talkin, it feels lonely.
ESPECIALLY if he passes messages through songs.

I'd die if anyone did that. Like, if I'm goin through a hell of a school day, he/she'd start singing McFly's I'll Be OK or give a CD with that.


So.... that's it. That's what I had to say to the world.


Pathetic, I know. But it's not like I promised a birthday cake, right?
Tricked ya =P