Negative

Woah. Why is there a Jingle Bell Rock song stuck in my head? I've been humming this tune eversince I woke up from my 5-minute nap just now.
Okay, I shall open my iTunes &- ah... Mui better.
Fall Out Boy's Where's your boy tonight?/Grand Autumn Theft (dunno which is correct. Rina told me the first, Bonnie told me the latter) is the best cure for random festive songs stuck in your head.

Anywayz, about my title. What's with the "Negative"?
Yea, it's been running through my mind alot - like me attempting to go on a treadmill. Hah - & I've decided, 'What better way to discard this matter than to blog it out?'
Enjoy the pessimistism.

Let's see. I know this is really shallow - I mean, not like I am shallow or whatever but still. Why do guys like me????
Like all those stupid rumours such as Guy P - not true - liking me & etc.
Why??? I'm not anywhere close to attractive, I'm tall but not lanky tall, I've a smile of a broken moon & half the time, I stumble along my words.

& you know what people keep telling me whenever I express this question. Majority just went:
"Oh, well, DUH, Aishah. You're nice, pretty (pfft), smart!" in that pep-talk kinda way, seeing as I am truly a nut case.

Few weeks ago, I kinda got a headache & my dad said it's bcoz I think too much.
I don't find that fair - just bcoz I've got a strong migraine, so strong that it felt as if someone was drilling in the insides of my brain, does not mean bcoz I talk to myself inside my head.

Much.

I feel so much better for blogging. Really, it's some sort of medicine for ppl like me.
Now I'm just feeling a little contented with everything - I don't give a damn on my looks.
Who cares? No one likes me.

& also, my grades are up, up, UP (comparing to 1st Monthly Test) so my parents presented me an iPod for yours truly's bday.
Oh, the other presents were awesome too =)

PLUS : I've realised that I've so many friends who actually CARE for me - & not stupid kinds who like to backstab & say that I take drugs or stuff like that (not like I've been a victim to gossip that atrocious. But just an example).

So why do we need to be all 'Ohmygod, I haaaaate my life!' when it's just simple & nice.
Just the way I like it.

& today was so fun - um, except for the whole Mac-jammed-thanks-to-Roy thing. Lousy critter.

'zat's all for now.


O&O,
GadgetG;o)